Today is my EXBOYFRIENDS big 21 Birthday. It wouldve been nice to call and say Happy 21st! But instead i think i not. You dont deserve no blessings from me when you played ya self on my end. People though i was too soft for this nigga, and i was. It took me our years to wake the fuck up. (well maybe 2 and a 1/2! ) I hope he has the wackest, brokest, bumiest birthday ever. =)

Im on the phone with my friend as i type. She just happens to be saying the dumbest shit. Shit that makes me realize why the fuck i chill in my crib and have a hand few of people i chill with or see on a daily basis. Sometimes i wish that i didnt have so much contacts in my phone. Contacts of sometimeish people. Im a stubborn mother fucker.

• I dont deal with bull shit
• I dont give a fuck
• I say what ever i want, however i want
• I can be an ass
• I dont give a fuck (i know i said it already)

Me being the person I am, i try to satisfy certain people by trying to be a good person to them. When these mother fucking people i have called friends start acting STOOSH, i keeps it fucking trucking!

So this bitch tells me im SPOILED! How if….

• I hit you up to chill, and you busy
• I call you to talk, you cant
• I messgae you on my phone, get no response

This goes for the rest of my friends. Thats what you do when you have friends! Its almost like a relationship. THATS WHY THIS SHIT BEGINNING TO PISS ME OFF! Im gonna start being on my WTF, WHO ARE YOU?, IF YOU CANT BENEFIT ME, LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!, attitude. I mean what do you do with your friends?

Then the shit that gets me, is that when u dont bother them, they wana know why the fuck you not hitting them up! ARE YOU FUCKING BIPOLAR?

My birthday is next weekend, and im not calling a mother fucking soul to help me celebrate it. I dont have real freinds anyway, so i dont care at this point. Ill pop my own bottles and get fucked up by myself.

Yall probably like “you fronting”, “you do care”, blah blah blah! Na not this bitch! It is what it is, im not sweating anyones situation, in terms of their relationship with me! However, sometimes i wish i didnt have friends!